i’ve moved on. i like james. me and mariah are friends again. i smoke alot. i talk to james some times and don’t pussy out. i can finally stand up for myself. but yet my life still feels like it’s breaking.


so last friday i saw you. you were at the football game. i wanted to cry. i couldn’t. and it made it so much worse that maddie wasnt there she was off with jake. i was with jess and i just couldnt do it so many things were going through my head. i want to die. i know you saw me. i went inside with jess and was talking to bree (abby’s sis) and this jillian girl. we went and bought a frescha then spiked it in the bathroom then we walked out into the hall and you were there with abby and kassandra and i didnt feel like having be awkward so i stayed and we all drank . i want to die. fuck. james. james talk to me please.. please